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2006/10/18 Set FreeLife has passed me like a shooting star
Like a bullet or a speeding car You've been there for me through it all And if you're here now listen to my call I've seen fire and I've seen rain I've learned it all and forgot it again Listen to my words and what I have to say This is my life and I like it this way You think you know what is best for me Look in my eyes, you'll be surprised what you see You'll never know what's inside my heart But in my life you'll always have your part I think I know what you're trying to do To save me from what happened to you But I learned from you a long time ago Not to take life fast but to take it real slow To have control I'll do whatever it takes I'll learn for myself, from my own mistakes I won't let you run my life any more And if you try I'll just even the score This is my life, I like it like this
If you try to run it, then what will I miss?
I want a chance to be all I can be
Please don't cage me, set me free 2006/5/13 I Wish Life Was A Fairy TaleI Wish Life Was A Fairy Tale Kings and Queens live happily In castles in the air They rule so well and justly That the outcomes always fair Wizards battle witches In forests deep and dark Their magic spells and little charms Will always leave their mark Pixies live most anywhere As long as there's a mist I wish life was a fairy tale So happily ever after would exist I BelieveI Believe I believe that magic Is always in the heart It is everywhere around us And will always play a part. I believe that angels Are sent from up above. To guide us through our actions With patience faith and love. I believe that centaurs Are with us everyday. Only few have talked to them About what? Whose to say? I believe that faeries Are with us everywhere. The help us live our lives With gentleness and care. I believe that mermaids live beneath the sea. And when I am in trouble They come and rescue me. I believe that horses Fly amoung the clouds. They rescue me from my thoughts When silence gets too loud. I believe that magic In the world has a part. It's inside everyone of us It lives inside the heart. RealtaRealta You asked if I was that star That I talk about At first I agreed with you But I don't now I've realized in my heart that You are my star When I am lost and very scared You light my way When I'm alone and lonely You're always there When I am sad and frowning You make me smile Now I realize that it was You all the time The star that I talk about I dream about The star that I dream upon Was you, all you 2006/3/20 Unknown TitleThe wind falls through my hair
Whispering to me the secrets
Of life
Of love
Of eternity
Letting me know that I am not alone
Letting me know
That while it can hold back
If I change direction it helpd forward
But I am not alone
We are together
Forever we are one
Forever and always
We are two 2005/12/15 Time To GrowThey say that everything has its time
Has its place
And I suppose that its true
When you look back
Everything that happen
Wouldnt have been so good
If it happened at a different time
And I suppose when you look ahead
To what you want to do
To who you want to be
You need to have that time
Maybe its the time
To reach out and grab what it is that you want
Or to sit back and watch
Or maybe you need to learn
Or to grow
For me its my time to grow
I've been sitting and watching
Reaching and grabbing
And I still feel like Im the same person
Yet when I look back
I'm not as quiet
I'm not as shy
I'm not as timid
Yet I still feel
Like I'm that same scared little girl
The one that I was
When I was still living at home
With my family and close friends
Friends that I almost never see anymore
And now I'm living
With two very awesome people
With a friend that comes over constantly
I am paying my bills
I am going out and having fun
I am in a different country
In a different world
But deep down
Way inside of me
I'm still the same
And now is the time
That I need to grow
To step out of myself
And become who it is
That I was meant to be
All along
So if I dont see you
If I dont write or call
Then just know that I'm thinking of you
I love you all
I'll miss you immensely
But I have to go
I have to do this
For myself
I have to stop living my life
In the past
trying to do whats right for other people
I have to start living for myself 2005/10/29 drunkennot myself dont know who i am i feel as if i am insignificant not worth anything but tomorrow i will wake up and feel like myself again 2005/10/17 My DanceWhen I dance I lose myself It is as if... As if I am free As if I am who I was meant to be The music The beat Takes over my body And I am no longer I am at the core of myself I want to explore this me I don't see it very often I want to see All that it can do All that it can be And when the music fades I feel peace I feel happy I feel as if Nothing bad Nothing horrible Nothing evil Can ever happen If we all danced If we all went back To our basic Primal selves 2005/10/2 WorrisomeWhen I worry I panic I don't think But then nothing gets solved It all turns out worse So I've tried to teach myself Don't worry Don't panic Take a deep breath 1 2 3 4 5 But it doesn't work So I try to get out of myself But I don't know how And it's funny because other people They tell me Breathe Just breathe Easy for you to say You know what's going to happen If you'll eat tomorrow If you'll have somewhere to sleep What you're going to do Where you're going to work What you're going to wear I know nothing All my plans always seem to fall through And then Just when I lose hope When I believe that everything is sunk It all pulls through for me And there is nothing left to worry about For the time being anyway 2005/9/19 The SearchTrying to find you
In a place
I know you are not
But I look
Not finding
Not caring
Soon I will
I'm going
To somewhere
I can find someone
Because
I have to
I have to find
Someone else
Before I can search
Before I can find
Before I can touch
Before I can feel
Before I can care
For you
Because
I don't want to
I'll let you down
I need to find me
Before I can find
Anyone else
I need to
Care about me
Before I can
Care for anything else 2005/8/29 BlackoutIt's unexpected,
When you aren't use to it.
But it's happened,
So many times,
To me.
I can predict them.
I ask myself,
Why me?
Am I weak?
Does my body hate me?
Why does it,
Continually,
Shut down?
Maybe,
Some part of me,
Hates the world
So much
That when,
It gets too much,
I escape.
To the bliss,
To the eternal darkness,
To where there is nothing.
No feelings.
No pressure.
No nothing.
But then I wake up.
The pain.
The pressure.
Everything,
Comes crashing down.
Which is even worse.
But maybe,
Just maybe,
This is just a temporary curse,
That I have to live with.
After all,
It could be worse,
I could never wake up. 2005/8/11 The Other MeWild eyes stare at me
Watching every move
Perked ears hear every sound
Every noise I make
And the monster follows me
It mirrors every step
And with every lie I tell
It grows
Until even I don't know
The truth
Am I the person
Or the lie 2005/8/10 VoicesI'm going insane
I have little voices inside my head
They tell me they are alive
When I want them dead
They tell me to write
I tell them I don't want to
They don't listen to me
And bother me until I do
These voices say they're people
They have their lives and lands
They say they were created
By my own two hands
But I still don't believe them
I think they're insane
After all they're just voices
And they're just inside my brain I Write To WriteI write
As an expression of my thoughts
I write
Because my pen makes me
I write
To tell the world my view
I write
To get things off my chest
I write
Because the words come
I write
So I can see my ideas
I write
To create life
I write
Because I am a writer
And writing is what I love to do 2005/8/9 Untitled ThoughtsPeople call me a child
Even though sometimes I feel like a mother
They treat me like I can't
Like I can't do anything right
Like I don't know what is best for me
Like I'm on a road to nowhere
I may look years younger than I am
But that doesn't mean I am
I've been through a lot
Even in my short life
I have known freedom
I have known prison
I have seen angels
And devils
All in the same people
It may not look like it
But I know where I'm going
Whether or not you agree
Whether you think I can or can't
I will
For the future is uncertain
And the future is what we make of it
So I am going to make my future
And it's gonna be pretty damn good. |
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